life

i did not do any big trips this year.

i had no motivation to do anything after running the firefighters race.

all of my hiking plans disappeared and instead, i enjoyed my summer doing absolutely nothing.

next year will be different hopefully. i have been thinking of scaling back my online presence. i just don't find interactions online do anything for me anymore. with that being said, i have deactivated my meta account (fb/messenger). the fb feed offers nothing of relevance to me, and for a large portion of the people that are my "friend", we do not interact in real life. it is a digital space that i do not miss. i hope that this goes good because i am looking to delete it all together. i have a of of things posted on fb but at least i can download all of it before deleting my profile.

i think i will keep with my routine over the autumn and winter months and start training early for next years' big race. it will be my third time entering. with all of the training, surely i will be more prepared for longer trips. i think that was a big difference vs 2024, where i became a little obsessive with numbers and lost a lot of weight, and was running 4 to 5 times a week. but, that training and mindset helped tremendously when i went and checked out the defunct Kinghorn rail line between Nipigon and Thunder Bay. it was my first hike of the year and i was in blaze mode instantly.

this year, i trained for the race, however it wasnt as intense as 2024. i ran the race with no issues, but found myself unmotivated to run in any other races in the summer months. i had stopped training and running, and so, i lost all of my drive to go walk on trails too. the idea of even packing a bag made me freeze and it never happened. Reyanne and I did Pukaskwa this summer, but that was it (it was a great trip that maybe ill discuss another time). i almost cancelled that trip due to the way i have been feeling but she was looking forward to it and so, i didnt want to crush her and cancel.